last night i got to celebrate my birthday in the best way i could imagine. first photographing a packed @rayezaragoza show at my favorite venue in nyc @rockwoodmusichall, then post-show spending time with a room full of the inspirational, wonderful humans who make this city feel like home. raye + the gang also surprised my birthday neighbor @mattmarlinski + i with cupcakes that were kaitlin-friendly!
i think it says something about how present we collectively were in the moment that none of us remembered to take photos. to be so engaged in the moment as to forget to document it. fortunately @jwu31 did catch the crew surprising us with cupcakes, so here’s a clip of the bday kids looking both terribly embarrassed + very happy. thank you to all the folks near + far that made it a day of being present + smiling a whole lot.
the clocks + calendars flow into the new year, light as air + i envy their ability to carry nothing more than the present with them. for us the past is not so easily shed.
this reckoning with the things we carry, it can feel like both a burden and a blessing. it’s the contrast we all live + breathe + wrestle. our hearts + minds + bodies are the scrapbooks of our lives, and although we don't always get to pick what happens to us, we don't get to pick every addition to our scrapbooks, we have some say in how we read and respond to the entries. in a life full of uncertainty + unexpectedness + unanswered questions, that’s surely something.
2018 was a year of intense contrast. blinding light + blinding darkness. for me it was a year more heavy than light. in years past, this is perhaps where i would say i am glad my clocks + calendars are moving into a new season. this year, i think the season remains the same. today ends, then today begins. the slow surgery of working through the heavy things, the broken things, remains. the unexpected moments of joy remain.
i carry some things i wish i could discard like old receipts, but for years now i have also carried this word on my arm, an intentional entry to my corporeal scrapbook. i bear this word on my arm, but at times i think it's more appropriate to say that it carries me. here's to today + the todays to follow. i hope they hold more sun than shadow for you.
get to spend the holiday with my not-so-lil sis @kelseygladney!! (feat. an outtake of me being a weirdo bc i still don’t know how to adult)
happy birthday to my puppy brother @cgladney4!!! thanks for being my bestest bud + partner in crime. connor is an exceptional human: one of the most compassionate people i’ve ever met, and he constantly inspires me to be a better person with his warmth + empathy + integrity. i hope you have the most rad birthday filled with very good doggos + unlimited mac n cheese 🐶
got to tour with some amazing folks this summer + feeling really grateful today. i can’t find photos of everyone but dang what a great group of artists + activists + crew!
early birthday brunch for my bestest bud @cgladney4!! i can’t imagine what life would be like without my brother/best friend/partner in crime/neighbor. i am a better person thanks to him. i got him some socks with corgis spirting bandanas + this nice bday sash and minion hats. also an actual gift but it’s in the mail still. send him some bday wishes won’t you? 🐶