hello yes so there are ONLY 8 TICKETS LEFT for tomorrow’s @skoutoutloud gig! if you were thinking about grabbing tickets, now’s your chance - there won’t be tix at the door if these go. link in the skout bio.
i am still learning how to lean into this unplanned season of stillness. i feel more comfortable in transit. more at ease when action is the way forward. slowing down...stresses me out. a lot.
but there’s been, in this uncertainty, a sharpening of perspective. renewed gratitude for the good energy days. appreciation for the hours when my body can carry me through my responsibilities. and opportunities on the not-so-good days, in the more trying hours, to practice being gentle with myself. to practice patience (again/still/always).
and in this in-between, i figure, might as well try to serve some looks with these anti-germ masks.
haven’t shot a show in a looooong minute due to a period of interminable autoimmune issues, but @sofitukker posted a one of my photos from their @brooklynsteel show on twitter, and it reminded me that i am proud of my work + that this is what i’m working to get back to. so i dug up some more shots from that gig here ya go (LD: the incomparable @tessfalcone)
spending sunday morning with my first cup of coffee in thirty days.
it has been quite the six weeks y’all. rest is not my strong suit. the perpetually restless part of me conflates stillness with a lack of progress, thinks if i’m not moving forward then i’m falling behind. the temptation is always to push forward, push through.
it’s uncomfortable, this season of stillness. curious how uncertainty feels familiar and yet i must become reacquainted with patience time + time again.
if you’re in a place where you feel impatient or uncertain or stuck, i hope you know you’re not alone in that. we’ve all been there before + we’ll find ourselves there again. i hope you’re able to let people sit with you in that space, to be the voices letting you know you’re not alone. and maybe that in-between includes a cup of coffee, while you wait for the transition from stillness to spark.
i know i say these things often. but a refrain that feels true in my bones is worth repeating, so this is my chorus:
there is no such thing as an unimportant person or an unimportant life.
grief. pain. questions. community. healing. hope. these things matter + they’re worth talking about.
we all live with questions + scars + things that haunt us. we struggle to let go, or we tire of holding on. sharing the heavy stuff can be hard. but we can find connection in vulnerability, in being honest about our pain.
pain is real, pain can be blinding, but hope + help + recovery are very real things too. you are worth fighting for. you, who can feel brave + broken + hopeful + fearful all at once.
you matter, and your story matters, and you are not alone.
if you’re struggling with your mental health, you’re not alone. some good resources: @crisistextline @twloha @trevorproject @800273TALK @hopefortheday 1-800-273-8255
flowers + moderate temperatures #tbt
@rayezaragoza has a new live EP! it was recorded at @rockwoodmusichall and features a fantastic new song called “warrior,” plus solo acoustic versions of three songs from previous releases. it’s premiering over on her profile now - check it out and add some awesomeness to your day! then come back here and tell me your favorite track : )
this almost made up for the fact that it was 5°F with a -16°F windchill when i got up 🥶
To live in this world
you must be able
to do three things:
to love what is mortal;
to hold it
against your bones knowing
your own life depends on it;
and, when the time comes to let it go,
to let it go.
- Mary Oliver, from “In Blackwater Woods”